Time Out

Yes, I'm placing myself in time out from blogging. There are several reasons for this, just a couple of which I will share with you.

Firstly, January is my busiest month work-wise, with an overabundance of bookkeeping duties that must be accomplished by the end of the month.

The second reason I'll explain by sharing a dream I had a couple of weeks ago. It was a scary dream. The last moments of it were me being thrown against a wall by a ogre-type creature. As I tried to scream, I realized he had taken my voice. He was getting ready to take my heart but I woke up. I immediately asked God what that meant. I feel that He said the ogre was the devil & that was what the devil was trying to do: silence me. I know stopping blogging may seem to not be the thing to do in light of that dream, but I feel I need to "find my voice" in God before continuing on. I want to blog with purpose, not just babble.

Lastly, I am struggling with what I can only describe as post-traumatic stress from the events surrounding Evan in the last two years. It may be difficult to fully understand what I mean by that unless you have had to not only watch your child go through several major medical battles, but be the person who had to choose to send that child into those battles & watch the pain & suffering that resulted from them. This has left me deeply shaken and affected in ways I decline to go into here. Suffice it to say that I am confident that God will heal my heart & spirit over time. I am going to continue to write, as it is my major way of processing, but that needs to be done privately. Blogging will at this point only take away from my time to do that.

My assumption is that I will resume blogging in February but I leave that up to the direction of my Father. Thank you all for the kind words, prayers, & encouragement over the last several months. I continue to covet your prayers for this season I find myself in.

Thank you.

Comments

[tom]

I completely understand the need to take a break, Lori. I hope January is good to you and yours and that you find a little rest in the midst of the busyness. Hope to see you in Feb and have a Happy New Year!

[Felicity]

Been there. Take all the time you need! This is the greatest thing I have learned about God - He is with us for the journey, as you say in your blog title. He's not waiting around the corner or watching for us to hit a plane of perfection; He's with us NOW. Enjoy.

[Snowflake]

I hope you get teh respite that you need during your downtime. I just fell across your blog on blogmoms and I think it's wonderful. I look forward to your return in February.

[Pat]

I was with you when you were traveling back and forth to the hospital and all the things your family went through. I wondered at the time how one family could do it. Please get the Spiritual refueling you need, and just plain rest.

[Lori]

Thanks to everyone for their support & concern. I'm having a productive break & feel that God is showing me some things I need to take care of. Thanks again.

[Julana]

Lori,

I totally understand where you are coming from. God be with you.

[Molly]

So, I noticed it's February. :-)