That's how I feel: like I've been on the battlefield and am now having to acclimate to "civilian" life again. We brought Evan home from the hospital Monday evening. It was so wonderful to come home to a clean house, courtesy of Kristen, & to sleep in our own beds. Evan tires easily but that is to be expected.
Yesterday our church had a wonderful picnic out at the Allemang's ranch. There was lots of food, fellowship, volleyball, & swimming. Evan wasn't strong enough to participate in the volleyball games, but he sat on the sidelines, always with a friend by his side, cheering everyone on.
While it was wonderful to be with our friends, I just kept feeling a bit disoriented. I think the intensity of the previous days was catching up to me. When Harold & I were in the midst of it all, we didn't really have time to process the full implications what was happening to our son. We couldn't really take time to think "Oh, our son only has a 25% chance of making it." Now that we are home, the "what could have been's" are coming upon me. As I watched kids playing & Evan with his friends, I caught myself thinking, "We could have had to bury him last week!" Don't get me wrong, I am so grateful that God spared his life. It's just that the enormity of what Evan just survived is ...well, I don't really have words for it or what I am feeling.
Thanks again to all who prayed, especially Evan's wonderful group of friends who despaired at the thought of losing him, but got to see the mercy of God instead. My wonderful hairdresser, Kim, told me today after cutting my hair, "I hope the next time I see you, you have nothing but boring things to tell me." Yes, let the boredom begin!
I'm so glad to hear that Evan is feeling better! I've been praying for you guys and will continue to!
Posted by: Jessica | July 05, 2007 at 02:53 PM
Amen! Maybe you should have people over and do nothing but watch dust fuzzies float in the light from a window.
Love you guys. I'm glad God worked things out the way He did.
Posted by: Eleanor | July 05, 2007 at 09:14 PM
El, watching dust fuzzies sounds exquisite! Jessica, your prayers have meant so much to us. Thanks for your faithfulness!
Posted by: Lori | July 06, 2007 at 09:09 AM
I understand your feeling of beeing disoriented. It is almost like you can't imagine that people have been living normal lives while you were away. And it is always hard to jump back into the flow of daily traffic. But I'm so glad that is your biggest hurdle today! Praising God for his faithfulness.
Posted by: Kathy Nickerson | July 07, 2007 at 10:50 AM
Wishing you lots of boredom this summer and into the rest of the year!
Posted by: StephanieS | July 08, 2007 at 04:03 PM
I just wanted to say "hi". I was just wondering where all the blogs were who were written by parents of teenagers and a reader gave me your link. My son is 16.
Posted by: Jodi | July 10, 2007 at 06:04 PM
We almost lost our son to a yeast infection in his blood. I usually do well in the midst of a crisis, then fall apart afterward. God is so good. Yes, boredom is always desired in our family, too. May you have much of it the rest of the summer.
Posted by: MamaBearJune | July 11, 2007 at 01:26 AM
Lori,
I'm so glad Evan's ok. He's sure been through a lot lately. I hope the rest of his summer is one to remember, because of the fun and good times he has with friends and family.
Julana
Posted by: Julana | July 11, 2007 at 07:55 AM
Anything boring to report yet?
Posted by: Molly | July 16, 2007 at 12:50 PM